Confident

(sorry for the funky angle, but this was the only way I could get the whole rainbow in; seen from my back door)

I'm going to be honest with you. Sometimes I struggle. I struggle with my purpose, with my ability to be a good wife, mother, and person altogether. I hope that this doesn't come as a surprise, because I have a feeling that all of you struggle in some way or another, too.

I have mentioned before that two years ago my marriage went through the very hot, very painful refining fires of God. That refining became a gigantic blessing, in that we are happier now than we ever were and our story has the wonderful opportunity to be a blessing to other people's marriages, but it also at times seems to come back to haunt me. Those times come fewer and fewer these days, but when they do come they bring with them pain, doubt, and times of struggle for me. This weekend was one of those times. By Sunday, though, I was able to once again see past the hurt and remember how far God has brought us. I have to make the choice, each and every time, to not allow the pain of our past negatively affect where we are today.

During our worship service on Sunday morning, as we were singing a song of praise to God, I raised my hand in the air in worship. My 5 year old, who was standing beside me and singing along, raised her hand in the air, too. She knew why she was doing it. She has seen me do it both at home singing along to the radio and also at church. In that moment, with my eyes closed in worship but also aware of what Libby was doing, God reminded me why. He reminded me why I have gone through all I have gone through in my life. He reminded me why having a strong marriage is so incredibly important. He reminded me why I need to seek God's strength in my life and press on in my marriage and with my children. The reason why I need to continue to be strong was standing there right beside me, with her hand in the air praising God just like her mommy. There are two other reasons just like her, and countless others that God knows about but I don't yet.

This morning I was reading in Phillippians and I was reminded once again of one of my favorite verses. Chapter 1 verse 6 says, "Be confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."  

Times of struggle and trial may come, but be confident! He is not finished with His good work He is doing in you.

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