Sunday, March 1, 2009

The One Word Project

Thank you all for your kind words over this past week. It turns out that everything is alright. I have had migraines since I was a teenager, and the results of a recent MRI of my brain showed some unusual things. I went to a neurologist Friday morning, and everything seems to be okay. It turns out that my increase in migraines is "normal" in people who have had them long term. They have also been compounded by the fact that I have not slept well in over 3 years. My brain needs good, long sleep to produce what it needs to fight back against migraines, and since it has not been getting it, the migraines have been getting more frequent and severe. So, off I go to try to figure out how to make my little guy (who, mind you, woke up 4 times last night, one of the times being for an hour and a half) sleep better so I can get more sleep. For me, it is survival (if I leave things as they are, my migraines will increase from one a week to every day). Good luck with that, right?

The result of all of this, as well as the week off from blogging, has been a quieter me. I have totally put myself in God's hands, no matter the outcome. But, I have fewer words, as I watch my babies play, as I watch my husband come home from work and the resulting joy on everyone's faces, and as I quietly fight through another migraine.

I contemplated taking a whole month off of blogging. I have contemplated stopping blogging altogether. But, I want to be true to the reason I started this in the first place.

So, my solution is something I just discovered over on the Shutter Sisters blog. It is the One Word Project. Each month they come up with a word, and people enter pictures that they think capture that word. This will be a way for me to still keep this blog active, and still maintain my quiet (which I feel like I really need right now). Each day I will post a photograph of what I think is beautiful. And when I come out on the other side of this, whenever that may be, I will be stronger, because God will make me so.

I will still keep up with the blogs that I love to frequent, especially as garden season rolls around again. Our seeds are here, and my friends and I will be sorting through them all to start growing them very soon. As the cold accepts it's defeat and the sun grows stronger, many lovely pictures will emerge on this here blog. Just be patient with me=)

Here's to Beautiful! Feel free to share what is beautiful to you in the comments section!


Nan said...

Megan, Leslie has kept us informed of your health problems. We just had a 24 hour prayer vigil at my church, I lifted you up durning my time. I will kep you in my daily prayers, also. May God hold you in his arms and give you comfort.
God Bless, Jeanne

Courtney from mommie blogs said...

I am so glad to hear everything is okay. I, too, have battled with head-aches (only a few migraines) since I was young and had to go through the MRIs and doctors visits. But all checked out. Praise the Lord. but I know how hard it can be to ease a worried heart and find it inspiring that you just gave it all to God. thank you for sharing your story. I will continue to prayer for you. now I will be praying for your rest :)

gardenmama said...

Thank you ladies. I appreciate all of the prayers and words of comfort.

Kendra said...

Oh you poor thing! The only thing I've found to help my boys to sleep better through the night was to (sadly!) wean them. That reduced the number of times they got up and then once both of them learned to walk they both became good sleepers. Something about that learning to walk stage kept waking them up. Then once they got the hang of it, they slept soundly.

I hope you get the rest you need and soon!

gardenmama said...

Kendra, I am actually planning on night weaning Hudson here soon. I am hoping that that will help. Last night he slept until 2:30, at which point I woke up with a migraine. It's frustrating. You're right, I can tell a difference now that he has gotten pretty good at walking. Their brains just don't turn off very well, do they?